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sorry for not updating kay...Argh!!!
i lost my confident...
shit uh!!!
till now,i still can't forget that day conversation...
they know,i know...
i may act strong,brave and heck care attitudes
BUT to tell the truth,
i really feel hurts sehy...
i am weak...
*burst into tears*
this shows that i'm not strong to bear all that actually...
i know it is for my own good...
i disrespect and treat [insertname] badly sometimes...
i disrespect and treat [insertname] badly sometimes...
that's what [insertname] claimed but it's truth.
i think because of something happened this year.*think so*
i myself do not know why!!!
confused,angry or bear grudges...
Bullshit lurh HADI!!!
why must i do this and that unnecessarily...
i swear i don't know why!!!
i must start thinking about what others feel too and not only myself.
anyway,thanks to him that i found out something.
if not,i may not realised it.
nowadays,i always feel bad about myself
AND feeling way
DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN....
what has happened to me!?!?
i must not continue myself being this way.
i need to change for the better.
if i think back,i changed a lot as in my behaviour and attitude wise compared to the time when i was only a sec 1.
still a little boy.
God help me please...
I also hate myself as who i am now...
i wish i can be my old self when sec 1 time maybe...
i'm always innocent,kind,helpful,friendly and a well-behaved boy.
people said i got influenced with bad companys.
sometime i think it's good not to know something surrounding me.
problems come,problems stucked with me.
so if i create trouble,i must solve it myself too.
somehow,i must think of a way.
i won't let them break apart.
I LOVE MY BAND!!!
sorry guys,
just give me one more chance
to prove it this time...
two things that i will remember,
"one can never fight alone"
And
"bandmates will get praised first while the leaders will stand at the back if they did something good but when we got into trouble,the leaders will stand in the front and faced it first"
sad siaaa...
anyway why must i get sick today?? - High Fever/flu/coughing...
Stay strong hadi...
FYI,i cried when typing this post...
haiyoo why must i tell...
hmm nevermind uh...
once in a life time maybe...
To those my friend out there who i had hurt their feelings or what,
please forgive me..
i had no intention of doing so.
just don't hate me.
for now,i want to have peace at the moment.
i'll be back with my old self.
Promise!!!
make myself useful and do something useful too...
i want the teachers,parents,alumnis and friends to be proud of me.
i'll prove them wrong.
i won't just say but i will do it.
let bygones be bygones and let's start anew kayy...
*coughing*
kayy uh...
i want to take a break and rest first.
hope i will recover from my sickness(state of being ill)...
hmm...
BuhBye people...(Y)
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